Inner Child - Are you there?

I have been struggling a lot lately with feelings of anger. I have come to the determination that these feelings are from the overwhelming sadness that I have been internalizing for years now. This sadness stems all the way back to when I was a small child. I can not pin point the reason or reasons for this sadness, but I do know that it is time to let it go and replace it with love.

Yesterday I had a private session at Healing Waters QiGong Center in Hudson, WI with QiGong Master Healer Denise Gunderson. Now this is not my first session with Denise, but it certainly was a powerful one. I felt the need to tell Denise about all of my anger and sadness and my desire to let it all go. I prefer not to go into all of the details of my session, but it was one of release and relief.

I visited myself as a young child and embraced who I was then and who I am today. To my surprise I am still the same child in a grown up world and a grown up body. I left my session feeling so much lighter and with the intent of receiving back the love that I constantly pour out towards others.

It is in my nature to share my love and knowledge in life with others, but I seem to shut the door on receiving it back. I learned that people get as much from sending love and support to me as I do giving it to them. I have made a promise to myself to try to make sure I am open to receiving what life has to offer up and to take care of the inner child in me.

Life Is Not Always A Comparison Of Apples To Apples

Whenever I tell our daughter, Emily's, story to people I most commonly get a response of: "I don't know how you do it?" I am always puzzled by this response because I don't know how not to do it? I guess I could do nothing for Emily and she would have a poor quality of life, or I could put her into an institution, or we could just give up and let her wither away. But none of those options ever have or will cross my mind. Emily is our first child so I guess I didn't realize how life could be different until her sister came along.

Just like the dynamics of any family, our two girls are so incredibly different that there is no true comparison of apples to apples. So when I am asked by a friend or stranger the question of "how do you do it?" I simply reply that "my life has challenges just like theirs and that you just deal with what you have been dealt". I also remember that not one single person in this world totally knows what it is like to walk in my shoes and I don't know what it is like to walk in theirs. Although others may experience similar struggles, their life can never truly be compared to mine.

I appreciate empathy when times are tough and celebrate when times are great. I try to think of our life as being the 'norm' and that makes it easier for me to get through the tough times. So, no matter how similar a situation might seem to you just remember that life is not always a comparison of apples to apples. Reach out to those in need and tell them it WILL get better and show your support for their struggles. But please do not assume that you understand what they are going through for they are truly the only ones who know how they feel.