I have been struggling a lot lately with feelings of anger. I have come to the determination that these feelings are from the overwhelming sadness that I have been internalizing for years now. This sadness stems all the way back to when I was a small child. I can not pin point the reason or reasons for this sadness, but I do know that it is time to let it go and replace it with love.
Yesterday I had a private session at Healing Waters QiGong Center in Hudson, WI with QiGong Master Healer Denise Gunderson. Now this is not my first session with Denise, but it certainly was a powerful one. I felt the need to tell Denise about all of my anger and sadness and my desire to let it all go. I prefer not to go into all of the details of my session, but it was one of release and relief.
I visited myself as a young child and embraced who I was then and who I am today. To my surprise I am still the same child in a grown up world and a grown up body. I left my session feeling so much lighter and with the intent of receiving back the love that I constantly pour out towards others.
It is in my nature to share my love and knowledge in life with others, but I seem to shut the door on receiving it back. I learned that people get as much from sending love and support to me as I do giving it to them. I have made a promise to myself to try to make sure I am open to receiving what life has to offer up and to take care of the inner child in me.
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This is beautiful, Kristy. As a young child you always said: "I am Kristy Pruden" You would say this when encountering a new challenge or when sharing an accomplishment. I have since learned that 'I am' statements are powerful messages to our soul. I believe that even when you were a child you were teaching us to recognize and acknowledge the beauty of our souls. You always have been such a powerful spirit.
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Love,
Mom